What happens when life hits a dead spot? And it just feels like you can't move. If you take a step in either direction, left, right, forward or back, you hit a wall.

Sometimes I hit those walls, but more recently then ever before. I know that just because our house wont sell is a reason to hit the stop button on my life, but it sometimes feels like that, until we move, my life will continue to be on hold.

Sometimes the question pops into my mind "Is all this really worth it? The three years of waiting? One showing after another and still no one buys the house? The stress? Is it all worth it?" and each time I decide "Yes! It is!"

I have been told before that I need to be "realistic" with my life, and stop waiting to move, which might not even happen (I know for many people, they believe it WILL never happen and I hope to prove them wrong! )

Some people believe it is stupid for me to h old off on finding a boyfriend, or getting my drivers license and all the other things a girl my age should, and is doing. But I think it's smart.

What would happen if I were to get sick of waiting, and go hitch up with a guy just because it's "what all the other girls are doing." and then the next week, our house sells and we are suddenly moving across Canada.

Then I am stuck. I am on one side of Canada, and my boyfriend is on the other side. Then what?  I'm not moving back, and I doubt he would move out there.

And the same goes with my drivers license, except it's sort of different while still being the same. If I get my learners license, which I would then have to keep for two years, and we move within those two years. I have my learners yes, but it's no good over there. And I have to pay to retake the test AGAIN! Well these goes hard earned money!

I struggle with patience. And each time we get a call for a showing, I get stressed and I want to scream. But I don't. I try (the best I can) to hold that in and think positive thoughts. "Just think, these could be the buyers!"

My relationship with God has also been tested through these past few years. Sometimes I blame Him for not moving us sooner. I think things like "If God can make a donkey talk. And He created the earth in just seven days. Why the heck can't He sell this house?!   "

Then I calm down, ask for forgiveness for blaming God and ask for His help in selling. I mean, there must be a reason we have been kept here so long? Right? Everything God does, or doesn't do is for a reason.

So though it is hard, and tough, and trying. I have to just keep moving with my life. Keep my finger on the play button and don't let anyone get in my way and drag me down. Making me think that we wont ever move. Because I know God has big plans for my family. Plans that can't be destroyed by someone else saying "Be realistic!" when discussing our moving plans.  

Love this . . . reckon that sounds silly but what I love is hearing your faith, your knowing . . . love this . . . I thought of patience when I read what you wrote, especially after 3 years . . . I know a lot about patience, or more so my lack of patience . . . I was thinking, God surely does have a plan for you & your loved ones just as He does us . . . one thing I am trying to learn to do is when Praying instead of me always asking for what I am wanting I am now beginning to also ask if it is not to be presently to give me patience & strength during this Season . . . for me that is a challenge but I believe it is one God & Jesus are ready for